Never knew how tong ku it is to actually sing. It felt like a string pulling my head back everytime i stop to take a huge breath while singing, and when i sing, my throat hurts, so basically the whole head was hurting. Sad. Anyway, overdue photos!








Pretty Flowers!<3

Fell sick): Sadly. But im on my way to recovery! Wheee. i hate hate hate school. First week is horrible. Esp ytd): The class was quite chaotic. Haha and the weather was killing my head. Rah. PRacctically rushing worksheets aft worksheets. School feels quite unsettled. Guess i need to buck up. And i always say that. ): CME sucks. Why do we have to do project on that. Who cares abt the history of nanyang man. But like what jasmine says, it wld look kind of bad to see a failed grade for your CME. Haha stupid education system and their curriculum. Have to change class with 4/14 next week. Stupid.Now I have to climb 3 floors every morning/recess/lunch. Super inconvenient. Thanks la. And we are OBLIGED to accept their request because we can't say no. So sad. We've to play nice and we are reluctant to. New curtains are actualyl quite pretty. Cuz they are peach. Peach is a nice pretty colour. And it brightens up the class or else the old one makes it seem gloomy and demoralizing. Can't wait for blocks to come and end. Can't wait for end of JC:D

Had weddings the past two days. It was quite fun. Blahblah. I love buffet! They shld jsut have dessert buffet. I'll just gorge myself to death. I missed out quite a few dessert like Apple Crumble annnnd Tiramisu! Tiramisu is ex man, the rum or coffee liquor. Next time I'll just head over to that section first, if ever there's a next time. Lala. Haha I'm hopeless. I don't like seafood cuz its grossssss. Raw is so er xin! I'm just a simple person who eat simple food. Whee, help ppl save money man ;D

Under the starry night, soft proclamations of heartfelt words.

Oh gosh, what have i done?
I feel like the worst creep ever.

In this amorphous, ambiguent space, constantly shifting in locale;
adjusting to our presence, a place where love resides and wishes come true.
As sunlight filters through woven dreams, love space of our paths intertwined,
braided as a never-ending trip, pillows in the clouds of passion;
as time passes in our ever changing universe.

I did not just write that. Hah. Go figure(:

Thank You Lord

I thank You Lord, for the trials that come my way
In that way I can grow each day, As I let You lead
And I thank You Lord for the patience those trials bring
In that process of growing, I can learn to care

Chorus:
But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do
For when those trials come
My human nature shouts the thing to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

But, I thank You Lord, for the victory that growing brings
In surrender of everything, life is so worthwhile
And I thank You Lord, that when everything's put in place
Out in front I can see Your face
And it's where You belong.

I do love this song. It's a song that somehow finds its way to your heart, that no matter how many times you listen to it, you'll never get sick of hearing it.

Is there another word for emo? I think emo isn't a right word. I don't do emo. Just hmm, moody perhaps. Yup a gentle word for it. Again, felt like running but didn't and now I'm regretting. Maybe tmr I'll go swimming. I like the waters(: But that being said, I NEED TO COMPLETE THT PILE OF HOMEWORK AND START STUDYING BECAUSE I'M LOSING ON MY HOLD ON THE GRASP ON THE REALITY OF EDUCATION AND STUDIES.

My thighs are getting fatter, my legs are getting uglier, my face is becoming more hideous, like seriously, my stomach's getting fatter, my hips are getting wider, my hair is becoming disgusting, my arms are becoming flabbier, my voice is turning gross and I sing worse than a crow now. So tell me why am I worth it? What good does it take to, hmm nvm. Wht am i talking about man. Simply trying to list out all the bad points I have that can be seen. So that you know.

Whoa, I'm good at demoralising myself. But anyway, I'm just stating the facts. So that's that.

Pathetic's the word.
Rah my gums been bleeding for the fourth consecutive day. Sucks man. I wonder if tightening your teeth or smth gives you such a result. I'm lazy to call the dentist too. Wanted to run just now, but didn't feel like it. Lazy again. Too sian to do anything. Shall rot at home and dieeeeee. But then again, I'm regretting it. I should have just run, run run run. I think I'd like the feeling of running until my lungs feel like bursting, and that's if tht feeling comes only after i run for really long. Oh well, but in any case, i feel super choked with emotions. I cant stand myself. I need to get a hang on myself and get into reality annnd stop being so hopeless and stupid.

Waiting can't get any worse. Can it?

I must have spoilt my phone by at least about 30% today. Kept sliding the phone, taking it out. The worst that happened was when I dropped the phone, and it was a loud hit on the floor. Biggest damage man. I guess i was really distracted. Seriously. Whole day was just so moodless for me. Bought shoes though. After walking arnd and everything. Yeah ok la. I like it. Swimming had to make me feel worse. Couldnt get into the mood of swimming. Seriously many things run through my head, but i can't rmb wht anymore. Then this stupid boy competed with me. In a way. I noticed aft he swam jsut beside me, then when i took off he took off. I didn't stop so he didnt. But too bad, i won him every lap. He gave up soon after. Stupid. Or maybe I'm thinking too much. Haaaaa. Doesnt matter. Then wanted to swim more, cuz i was like getting used to it, then i saw tht stupid uncle who practically stared at me while in the water, and give me that smile. Ew ew yuck yuck. I just took off straight away. Conclusion: Never Ever EVERRRRR go to the pool on fridays. Alot of people too. i dont like it. Mmmm, I'm bored and sian. I hate holidays because there are alot of work to be done and i dont knw how to complete. I still have math and bio ws, two chinese compo and two chinese book reviews, and a humans essay, two essay actually, plus the corrections one. And alot of catching up for chem and phy which i've not been listening to? Woohoo, I'm so not making myself feel better. Hmm let me see wht else. Just alot. CME SIA!?!?!?!?! HELLO JIAQI JASMINE JIALE!?! Haha forget it. I need moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
I need you even more.

A relatively good week.
Tuesday someone came to my house and study. I think i keep asking math questions. Its like the longest math ws i've ever done. And then i realised there were like many mistakes later on. Thanks mannn. Haha. But it was quite cool cuz it was the first time i bake for ppl to eat! I was quite high during the night, kept singing while on the phone with Dan. Siao liao siao liao. I sound horrid and keep going out of tune. But just felt like singing. For like the first time too:D
Thennnn Wednesday went East Coast. Family Outing! Woohoo fun fun. Dan came with us! Whee my dad's power. Paid for him without both of us noticing and realising. Damn funny. Then cycled and had New Zealand's Natural! YAY! Super nice. Double scoop man. Dan is evillllll. He wants to make me fatter): But it was rly nice icecream and sorbet. Lala. He's retarded, went to ask my mum if we can go out the next day which is today! Hee cuz of free movie tickets stuff, HAHA. Funny man. But actually i sort of forced him to ask my mum so tht chances of going out is higher. Tralala my brother likes him man. JOVINA KOR KOR! :DDDD HAHAHA. My mum likes him to la, actually noticed he doenst have a proper water bottle and gave a nike one to him. Heehee. Funny. Whee sent him to his doorstep later on. Cool man. Bake again later on tht nice. Chocolate muffins! Yay i could smell it was nice, and my sister said it was nice. So i guess its nice? Maybe it's just the quality of the chocolate thts really good. But i like baking, with thoughts of baking for someone.
Today was better! Finally er ren shi jie! Wheeeee, watched Kungfu Panda. Ate at Swensens. The service at Suntec sucks big time. And the baked rice taste like shit, im just eating rice,plastic-like chicken and not very nice cheese separately. So people dont ever go there. I think the time we spent sitting there waiting for our food is longer than the time we eat. Should have taken pictures there and then. Pity there aint any): Just before he goes camp): So sadddddddd. Went for PC show aft tht. He purposely went to buy laptop tht goes with a camera. He sucks manzxzxzx. Haha. Then bought a printer tht comes with many freebies. Trolley trolley! We are cheapo ppl. Dragged the bulky trolley to MRT, and up down escalators. So funnnnn. Then i took some of his stuff to his house and met his mum for the first time. His mum quite cute, said many funny things to me. Yay i think no matter wht im always sabo-ing Dan. Wheeeee i rock i rock :P But so fun. Gave him muffins too. His house is messy but rly clean. Haha sounds impossible but yeah I nvr knew tht too. WHEE! Piggy piggy! Shall start saving money already. First time in a thousand years tht i've no money in my coin box. Tsk. But i got a pretty piggybank here. I shall fill it up and bring to the bank ;D Woohoo i'm crazy. But so happy. And in a sweet loveeeeeee!


This is interesting ;D

BOREDDDDDDDDDDD.
I WANT TO RUN MOREEEE. I WANT TO RUN RUN RUN AND NEVER STOPPPP.
I just felt like running alot ytd. For some reason. And luckily I did, because i never felt so happy runnning for a long time. Alot of times when i run in school, i was layz and tired and felt liek stopping. But ytd was just different. Whee its tht nice feeling tht came back. I wanted to run more if not for my mum's calls and my large intestine calling out to me. Haaaaa ah well. Lets hope the feeling will stay in me;D

Love is all I see when I look into your eyes.

Went on a known date with Dan today! Wheee! Everything was fine, and it was all good, except the morning part, but anywayyyyy, shant talk abt it. I'm super happy. Got nice matching tees, and got piggybank! Like literally a piggybank. Wahaha, a pretty one too! Finally found one. Walked around, still want to find a pair of shoes though. The ones at home like dying alrdy. Maybe i'll get a nice cheapo bag from the Pasar Malam downstairs as well! Woohoo! Okay anyw back to the point. Lunched and then walked to Heeren then to Centrepoint then to Plaza Sing. Couldnt get wht we want so we took a train to City Hall to go Raffles City. Ben and Jerry's! Wahaha evil dan. Refuse to let me pay. Next time im watching you eat if you don't let me pay the moneyyyy. No no, no more next time. The next time we are just going to eat the cheapo 60cents ice cream from Macs k ;D Kind of miss nice and simple icecream. Fancy ones sometimes get boring and leaves a sick taste in your mouth. Whee then went to Suntec and then to the Book Fair! Hohoho, we went there to laugh and make a fool of ourselves man. Damn funny. The whole day we jsut keep laughing and doing retarded stuff. People go book fair for books, we went there for magazines. Thanks la. Purposely bought retarded magazines. There were free Nivea stuff and pirated Kinder Buenos Chocolates k!!! The chocs just came in last minute. The auntie very funny, she was saying, your 2 dont fight over the chocs ahhhh. Haha we kept laughing please. Whee, then took retarded photos arnd the convention centre area. Whee loads of funnnnnn. Shared Muachee at my house downstairs. :D Hmmm cycling trip next week! Study date too! Tralala. This will be better than expected.

So many things happened the past days. Too tired to recall, or rather, i don't want to recall. I think i just want everything to be closed. Seriously. Damn sian already. Stupid woman, shes a stalker who sexually harasses not only one family but two. Everyday call and call. Now i knw why she do that. She does tht so that she can get the money more easily. She does that, knowing tht she'll tire out the ppl she calls and harasses, and in tht way, the ppl will be more willing to pay her tht fcking huge sum of money to her just to get her off their backs. Whoa is she smart or wht. Compensation also 800$? I burn hell money for her. Hope she enjoys the money in hell. Don't we all love her? Thanks for spoiling our times. Thanks for fabricating the untruths. Thanks for spoiling ppl's reputations in front of the parents. Thansk for screwing things up when things could go on so damn easily. Now tht you got the money you want, you big fat fugly old wrinkly money-faced bitch-hag-asshole, dont you dare come to harrass anyone ever again. And stop saying ppl call you, when obviously you are the one whos doing all tht damn calling. URGHHHHHH I HATEHATEHATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HER TO BITS AND PIECES AD I SERIOUSLY HOPE SHE BURNS IN HELL. Money sucks. Money rly brings unhappiness. I do not aspire to be rich, just want to have enough for life to get by. Simplicity is love. Anyway, having said, i do sincerely thank my frnds for their help. Pri schmates(: Esp Quek and Perry. Yep. Just always taking my calls :/ And i felt bad, cuz i got so many ppl involved. Esp Mj and yeah. Now i feel like i no face to meet anyone alrdy. Ah well.





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